Katrina – Just As I Thought I Could Walk Again. All Turned Quickly Into Sand. Y?

Balance BLPThe decision to finally take a closer look at the disaster called “Katrina” has already been paying off. I have been able to move closer to the source of my personal distress at the time. I had run away to find that I still had nowhere to turn to, in much of the same way as the Katrina victims and survivors. I was on a Death March of my own, and just like all the Katrina victims, I was unaware of it. Something was wrong, but I could not even begin to understand what nor why.

We did not know that we were looked upon as disposable waste. The first attempts to kill us, did not work. The second attempt took a lot of lives and limbs. And those who survived where told to walk towards the Doom. The assassins love their wordplay, but in our distress there is no time to appreciate their sick humor. We need water. We need food. We need shelter. We need help. Present tense.

We are a traumatized people, in dire need of healing. My personal Katrina in Hell Land pushed me toward the path of healing my self. But, I was so traumatized that I fought it. Instead, I kept looking to get saved. “Save me.” Save us. And that one request is the death of us. It allows them to send us on Death Marches whenever they feel like it. And as we are unable to get our brains to function properly enough to come up with a decent alternative, we suffer the consequences of their ill will. As we continue to March, they continue to carry out their sick plans. We remain at a loss as we are still hurting from the effects the last termination plans.

We all did as told. And look at what it brought us. Ever more trauma. Do not get preoccupied with it. They have so much more in store for us. All of us. These people have studied us for centuries, to know how to break us. They know what to tell us so we will continue to break our selves. And all we can think of is to look at somebody, anybody, and allow them to ‘save us’. While we are looking around for the ‘savior’, we should be aware of what all the last serpent saviors did to us. And they blame us. Sure, we helped them do it. We always help them do it. There is no victor without victims. And the victor knows how to get the victims to help him victimize.

In my own personal Katrina at the time of Katrina, I was pushed to malfunction. And I did as I had been taught. Yes, I went looking for a savior. Instead of seeking salvation into hell, I should have sought to get away from those firing away at me. I could not see that I was target practice. I simply did not recognize that level of insanity. I did not recognize it as it happened to me, and I did not recognize the bigger scale as it happened in New Orleans. I did not, but I do now. I can see the savior-complex and I can see the cold-blooded targeting “just business” plan. On all levels. Individual, relational, familiar, social, “business”, the world. Predators love traumatized people, for they are too distracted to recognize the predator. The predator can get up close, and still get embraced. Dubya Bush had his moment. And, in my case, one of the predators also slithered down to take a good look at me.

Why then the picture of the naked Black couple? Well, if awakening means that we wake up to the mess that the sick ones created for us, by enslaving and manipulating us to do it for them, then we need an antidote. Instead of asking the predators for help, we need start helping ourselves from the root up. It is not enough to just get the poison out of our system. We need to be able to connect with an upgraded version of our own system. Which means that we have to connect to and with our roots. To remember our inane sanity, and start to heal from there. And to start healing together. It is the ultimate goal. For Black men and Black women to stop bickering with each other, and to start healing together instead. So we can bring into the world our own salvation.

But, for now, I need some help… to get my footing, and rise up so I can stand. Or for him to rise up, so we both can stand.

ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.
By HungLikeJesus (2012)

I TOSS MY PEOPLE UP TO SEE WHERE THEY LAND, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

SEE DEM POLICE BOI, DEM WANT FA CHASE I, BUT I NEVER RAN, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

MY HEART GOES OUT TO ALL BLACK PEOPLE ON THIS OUR LAND, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

WE RIGHT HERE AS “MEN”, LET’S PROMISE TO HAVE OUR WOMEN’S BACK AND TAKE HER HAND, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

LET’S US GUIDE OUR YOUNG AND KEEP THEM INBOUND AND AWAY FROM THE PLAN, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

CAN YOU HEAR ME AND DO YOU UNDERSTAND? ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

YES WE BE OUT GUNNED AND EVEN OUT MANNED, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

TO THOSE OF US WHO ALWAYS RISE, THIS SKIN OF OUR BE OUR BRAND, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

TO THOSE OF US WHO DON’T CARE ABOUT THE PRESIDENT AND HOPES HIS ASS GETS CANNED, ON TOP THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

TO THE PEOPLE UP NORTH WE ARE WITH YOU AND WE SEND YOU DRYLAND, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

I WONDER IF Y’ALL CAN GET TOGETHER AND DONATE SO THAT I MAY GET BROADBAND, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY AND I STILL DON’T FEEL LIKE A MAN, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

SHOULD WE STILL BE LOOKING FOR THE PROMISELAND? ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

IT’S BECAUSE I’M BLACK AIN’T IT? YOU SHOULD’VE THOUGHT ABOUT THAT BEFOREHAND, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

NO THANK YOU LADY, I’M INTO BLACK WOMEN, NOW STEP AWAY BEFORE YOU GET THIS BACKHAND, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

HOW ABOUT PUTTING THAT FORK DOWN INSTEAD OF GETTING A BELLYBAND, ON TOP OF THIS MESS WE SHALL STAND.

katrina showed they don’t care for us, sandy shows they care for no man, on top of this mess we must stand. 

Source: http://depressionmymuse.wordpress.com/

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